Gelora

Gelora

Kini,
Hatiku bergelora,
Perasaanku bercelaru,
Aku makin takut,
Emosiku tidak stabil,
Seperti kerusi,
Yang hanya ada tiga kaki,
Akan tumbang pada bila bila masa

Mengapaku begini,
Aku tak tahu,
Aku letih,
Sudah tidak ingin meneruskan lagi,
Perangku itu,
Perang yang pastinya,
Aku kalah,
Mengapa perlu lagi berusaha,
Bukannya baiknya,
Aku berputus asa sahaja

Meskipun aku tahu,
Aku perlu tabah,
Mungkin kini,
Tabah itu tiada padaku,
Aku perlu masa,
Mencarinya kembali,
Semoga pencarianku tidak lama,
Masa ketinggalan,
Makin suntuk

Aku sungguh tak faham,
Mengapaku diriku begini,
Pada masa begini,
Masa yang aku perlu tekad,
Berdiri,
Menghadapi perangku itu,
Aku hanya ingin .......

bukan baiknya aku seperti burung tiong, terbang ke mana aku idam, tiada kerisauan
kadangkala aku benci diriku mengapa begitu rasional
tak bolehku betul betul bebas

DAMN

Damn it,
Seriously I am not happy now,
Got zero for an assignment I have worked hard for 6 hours,
This can't be accepted easily by me,
*&%$**&&*&^%$%#
WTH
Stating that my answer is similar to my friend...
Thus, I ask my friend...coz I did lend my assignment to her,
End up, I found out...our answer were similar,
No wonder...she shd have modify it smartly,
But I dun blame her, she was busy with a test at the time,
Yet, I still can't accept....the fact that I got zero for something I have work hard on
DAMN.....
ARRGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Dunno what I am goin to do later....unhappy me can be very irrational....just hope that I stay rational for the time being till I cool down

SUNYI

SUNYI


Aku bersendirian,
Di dalam bilikku,
Berhadapan komputer ribaku,
Malam semakin lewat,
Aku sepatutnya berehat,
Namun aku masih di sini,
Menulis perasaanku kini

Perjuanganku semakin hampir,
Hampir tiba masanya,
Aku menghadapi cabaranku,
Namun aku masih tidak sedia,
Untuk masa itu,
Aku cuba menekadkan diriku,
Namun aku masih sesat,
Sesat di dalam alam fantasiku,
Tidak tahu kedudukanku sekarang

Aku tahu,
Aku perlu berjuang,
Untuk cabaranku itu,
Namun ketekadan untuk berjuang,
Tiada padaku,
Entah mengapa begitu,
Mungkin ini yang dikatakan TEKANAN

Seketika tadi,
Aku berjalan di luar,
Bertemu dengan seorang perempuan,
Berjalan di sana sini,
Aku berfikir sejenak,
Apa yang berlaku,
Mungkin dia sepertiku,
Masih dalam pencarian,
Mencari ketekadan untuk berjuang

Ketika ini,
Aku berasa sunyi,
Keseorangan dalam bilik,
Namun inilah kehidupan yang aku perlu hadapi,
Untuk 6 tahun lagi,
Aku fikir,
Akankah aku gembira begini,
Perlukah aku mencari lagi,
Kehidupan yang benar benar menceriakanku,
Aku tak tahu,
Namun aku tahu,
Jalanku masih panjang,
Meskipun sedih atau sengsara,
Aku masih perlu jalan,
Ini yang aku katakan HIDUP

Aku fikir sejenak,
Kebelakangan ini,
Beberapa sahabat handaiku,
Sedih dan keliru,
Berhadapan dengan musuh mereka,
Aku cuba membantu,
Seberapa yang kuboleh,
Namun apa yang penting,
Ialah keinginan mereka,
Ketekadan mereka,
Mereka perlu faham,
Cara menewaskan musuh mereka,
Sebenarnya di tangan mereka,
Bukan di tanganku ataupun orang lain,
Mereka perlu faham,
Merekalah penentu,
Kepada penyelesaian yang dicari,
Bukannya orang ataupun faktor lain,
Mereka perlu faham,
Tidak kira apapun kesudahannya,
Mereka perlu hadapi,
Tidak guna lari,
Mereka perlu faham,
Keputusan di tangan mereka,
Walau apapun yang mungkin terjadi
Jangan menyesal,
Mereka perlu faham,
Jalan hidup sememangnya,
Penuh dengan duri dan onak,
Memang sakit melaluinya,
Namun apakah daya kita,
Kita masih perlu jalan,
Dengan minda yang positif,
Walau apapun, sedih atau sengsara,
Kita jalani hidup ini,
Tabah dan gembira,
Jadikanlah hidup kita,
Satu hidup yang kita boleh banggakan,
Bukannya hidup yang kita menyesal,
Bila kita pandang ke belakang,
Pada masa hadapan

Aku harap ketekadanku kembali,
Bila aku bangun,
Aku perlu berjuang,
Masaku sudah semakin hampir,
Aku harap semua sahabat handaiku,
Berdiri teguh menghadapi musuh mereka,
Ingatlah,
Jalani hidup dengan gembira,
Meskipun jalan penuh dengan duri,
Tetap perlu ceria,
Kerana jalan kita masih panjang,

Aku semakin letih,
Penglihatanku semakin samar,
Sudah tiba masanya,
Aku berehat,
Esok ialah satu hari yang baru,
Untukku berjuang,
Dengan hati yang ceria,
Dan positif,
Aku harap,
Sahabat handaiku,
Keadaan yang sama untuk mu,
Ingatlah,
Ketawa ubat kesengsaraan,

Selamat Malam.

I have left my blog for quite a while. Actually, I have certain things in my heart which I always want to write in my blog. It has been twice for me where I wrote half way and I just deleted everything. As my friend told me before, certain things are better left unspoken. Certains things are just meant to be kept in my heart.

I am abit drunk now. Earlier, I have discussion with Wei Cong, President of my current society regarding night cycling and chemistry camp which will be organized by Chemistry Department of NUS. However, we both end up drinking liquor ( 40 % ) after discussion. At first, I drank without mixing it with soft drinks which make me quite high everything I drank the liquor. In the end, I bought a can of coke to be mixed with the liquor and drink more. :-).....which is not good for me...ending half awake and abit drunk now. But I did tried something new tonight. Honestly, I have tried alot of new things this semester. I wonder why. It has been a "siao" semester for me. Well, it has been pleasure chit chat with him as we discuss about the future of the society more in detail. Now I know we have a lot of common view on certain matters.

Here, I would like to share a phrase with you all

"Our attitude is the key of changing a problem into an opportunity for growth in our life"

When I first read this phrase, I think for a moment. Then I realize that the phrase is indeed very true. When we encounter any problem, it is always back to our attitude in facing the problem and solve it. I read earlier in a person blog, problems are free complementary of what's so called LIFE. We can't make our choice in either accept or reject the problems. Problems will come to you anyway without you wanting it. Since, problems are something we can't avoid, why don't we make it as an opportunity for us to improve in our life. Do not fear problems but face it with determination. Honestly, this is what I have been doing all the while when I encounter my biggest problem/crisis this semester. Let the problems be a tool which can make you to be a stronger and a better person.

To my friends whom might be facing problems now, be strong and face it with determination. Take the problem as a tool for you to improve yourself. Always remember, life is a learning process. There are always up and down in our life. :-)

Let it be like " seasons in the sun"



To my certain friends, please do not decide what is best for my future. Please do not think that everything that you all are doing is for my own good. Let me decide what I want for my future. Let me decide what I want to do. I might make the wrong decision but that will be what I want. I know what I am doing. Afterall, I am 21 years old. I know the pros and cons of every decision I make, :-).